i tried .

but i guess that would leave most of you people in question .
questions ,
answers .


so what if it was answered .
you would still question that question .
weird huh .
i know .

then i started asking myself .
why are you even blogging ?
so i answered .
cause im bored .
then i asked again so why are you bored ?
i answered back , maybe im not bored , i just want to spill how i feel and have an excuse not to do my science punishment .

i guess if i continued asking ,
it would never end .

this post has totally no meaning at all . urg . i think im stopping here .

happy birthday bestie :} ily .

well , that was prettymuch our conversation :D haha .
sometimes .
I FALL .

ahh . okay . so people has started saying it on blogs , websites everywhere since twilight came out .
so i think i should whine about it a little , it seems fun anyways :}

haha .
okay , first i think stephen king (x3) is totally right .
the words that he said about Meyer .
people only like it cause it refects well on their love life and such .
Stephen king writes real good books ,
compared to Meyer , that is .
i mean , dont you people agree ?
read a Meyer book then read a Stephen king book ,
SEE THE DIFFERENCE ?

hey , got an issue about what i said ?
haha .
no offence really , im more of a Stephen king person :D

Plus if you want to know more , check out this website : http://community.sparknotes.com/index.php/2009/02/05/stephanie-meyer-cant-write-worth-a-darn/

in a perfect world , this could never happen ..
in a perfect world , you'd still be here .
& i thought that i was strong until the day it all went away .
i wish that i could bring you back
i just cant find my way without you ..

i dont know why i cried .
it was then that i realised how important you are to me than all the other things .
i was scared ,
i was scared to lose you .

i cant stop crying ,
i cant stop this fear .
& baby ,
right now ,
i cant let go of you .

even though words arent enough to keep our conversations going ,
i hope theres still this burning need for you to need me ,
for you to want me .

im scared love .
and i find it harder to breathe without you .

jona , love .
for me ,
promise me you wont let this thing go .

I just wanna be alone tonight , take a little breather
Cause lately all we do is fight , and every time it cuts me deeper
Cause something’s changed & You’ve been acting so strange
its taking its toll on me , now Its safe to say that I’m ready to let you leave...
im fine , without you .

held on to this for so long and i'd always thought that it would work
but not now , not anymore .
when i realised the lies and more of the lies you've continued to say .
i felt like i trusted the wrong person all along .
iris .. i've got nothing more to say .

when you said those words to others , saying that i did not keep my promise ..
you never once asked why i even reacted this way .

BESTFRIENDS dont make use of each other ,
Bestfriends dont take a tic for a tac .
bestfriends dont do that .

when you told me you were making use of me ,
have you thought of how i felt ,
that every now and then ,
everytime we hanged together ,
everytime we pour out our feelings , it was all just a LIE .

then when you said ,
oh , you did that to me thats why i purposely do it back to you ..
why must you do that , why not just tell me .
im changing , you're changing , so why not just tell me .
why must you always make yourself win know that by winning you already lost ?

you said ,
you diao me so i diao you back ...
it doesnt even make sense ;

you said ,
from last time and now ,
you've changed .
well , i guess i did .
i changed ,
BECAUSE I SAW THE TRUTH .


and now i find it hard to even forgive you .

i feel cheated .
i feel dead .
cold , so cold .
numb . so numb that i cant feel anything at all .

baby , where are you when i need you so badly , where are you ?
right now , my hand feels so weak and powerless typing ,
i cant walk on my own , i take only bites of those tasteless food .
do you know how awful i'm feeling now ?
i just need you but .. nothing. no one . not a voice nor a sound .
everywhere surrounding me is so empty .
like our picture ripped apart into two , burning in flames .
i dont know , to move or not to .
it sucks feeling like that , but i have to take it .
even without you ...

then i realised ,
i'm alone , here .
theres nothing , that makes me feel alive now .

baby , where are you ?

-with love , bel .

Labels: whats the point ? they are all just words .

Look into my eyes ..
you will see What you mean to me
Search your heart ;search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more

Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for ,
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for ,
but you know tht its true ,
that Everything I do ; I do it for you .

-

i've always like that pretty sky ;

it was even prettier when i saw it with you ...
that day , that moment , it was so perfect , there was no way to doubt it .

it didnt mind if i were to die now , i finally got what i wanted .
what i ever wanted .
though life is as fragile as a thin line , im jes glad tht i get to spend now with you .